A Newfound Desire for All Things Sex by Lucky Lexi

 

I’ve always been a sexual person, but in the last 6 months, my sexual awareness has been raised to new levels I never knew existed for me.  And you want to know why?  Because I made the choice to go OFF birth control for the first time in 11 years.  Yup, that’s right ladies.  Birth control was the culprit (in my case) that virtually eliminated any sign of a sex drive in me and therefore made me dread having sex with my (now ex) boyfriend (and made me a miserable bitch).   I gave him every excuse in the book because I just had absolutely no desire to have sex.  It always hurt because I was always dry (another side effect of the BC, it makes you like the fucking Sahara down there!). It was like “okay hurry up and get it over with” just because I was his girlfriend and knew I had to give it up every now and then.  But “every now and then” got to be like “once a month,” IF that.  I don’t know how he put up with me, but looking back, it was the source for a lot of our fights.   Ultimately, we weren’t right for each other and it was a good thing we broke up.

 

But anyways, back to the birth control…

 

I’ll spare you the details on why I got off birth control, but it definitely wasn’t to increase my sex drive.  Had I known it would revive the 15-yearold girl in me, I would have gone off it a hell of a lot sooner!  It’s so nice to actually get wet when a guy touches me again…to produce my own natural lube again finally…oh what a feeling!  Definitely a feeling you would never anticipate missing unless you’ve experienced it gone.

 

Within the first 2 weeks of being off the BC, I could already tell a difference.  I felt like a fucking guy! Sex sex sex.  All I could think about (shit, all I still CAN think about)!

 

The timing happened to be around the time I started hanging around my ex again, and what a perfect time to have someone I could “use” to experiment with my newfound horniness!  I hadn’t thought this through, obviously…but here is what happened the “first time” after being OFF the BC:

 

So, it was sometime in late July, and I had been secretly hanging out with my ex (whom I’ll refer to as “Hung” because, well, he was) to avoid the drama of our friends and family (who didn’t want us together) finding out.  We weren’t getting back together or anything, just hanging out and having fun.  No expectations.  No rules.  Just fun.  Well, we decided to go to South Haven for the day with another couple we were friends with.  The day was great, until some dark clouds started rolling in.  We decided to pack up and head to the cars.  Within 30 seconds of getting into our cars, torrential rains poured down and the lightning struck and the thunder rolled….classic.  At least we made it to the cars.

 

We decided to go grab some food at the Wendy’s nearby, hung out for a while and then decided to leave. Hung and I drove separate (I can’t remember why), and as we both got in our cars I remember him rolling down his window and looking at me.  I saw, so I rolled my passenger’s side window down.  “Hey I want to show you something out at my property.”  He said to me with a sneaky smile on his face.  (Hung’s family owned some hunting/partying property that was in between South Haven and home) 

 

“Okay. I’ll follow you.”  I said.  I knew exactly what he had in mind.

 

I followed him all the way down the main road, took a left onto a dirt road, and then another left onto the path/trail of his property.  We drove back to the spot closest to where we always camped and stopped our cars.  He got out of his car and came to mine, since I had an SUV and more room to get busy in.  We laid down the back seats, put the beach sheet down, blasted my iPod….setting the mood at least a little….if the rain, thunderstorm, and wet slippery bodies wasn’t enough.

 

He grabbed my waist, pushed me up into the back and climbed on top of me.  We started making out and I swear my bathing suit just “fell” off.  Keep in mind we hadn’t slept together in over 6 months and I’m still a little unsure if I want to open this can of worms by sleeping with him again.  But, I’m also horny as shit without the birth control, so my hormones won that mental battle pretty quickly.  He moves lower and starts licking my rain-soaked clit in a way I never remember him doing before.  

It felt so fucking good.  And for one of the first times, I wasn’t self conscious or worried about anything, I was simply relaxed and enjoying every moment.  He stayed down there for sooo long.   He knows it takes a lot for me to get off, and I’ve never gotten off from oral before.  This time, I thought it was going to happen.  My legs were twitching; I had one hand over my face and the other grabbing my tits.  God I wanted it to happen so bad.  And I swear I was just about there, but “just about there” for a girl is “so close, but so far away.”  God damnit.

 

I honestly don’t even remember why he stopped, but it didn’t matter.  At least I knew now it was actually possible to let someone do this to me and actually get off from it!  I had hope!  Next time, it was ON….

 

We went on to fuck for a while, doggie-style, missionary, girl on top…the usuals (using a condom, of course). It was a sexy session, there in the back of my laid out SUV, music blaring, rain pouring on the hood and thunder rolling in the background…with lightning striking every few minutes to give us each a brighter peek at our naked, intertwined bodies. But the best part was knowing I could now experience a kind of pleasure I never knew before.  And like it. A LOT.

 

The intensity of my new sex drive has shocked even me, making me think about things I had NEVER even thought about or wanted before. …making me DO things I never imagined….

 

1.    Started watching HBO’s CATHOUSE episodes on demand.  So fucking hot. 

2.    Started becoming curious about anal.  Never had thought about it in positive terms before until now.  Now I’m really curious.

3.    Wanting to have sex like 3-4 times a night.  Wow.  Crazy for me, but I love it.  Just need a boyfriend…Hung will do, for now.

4.    Started masturbating to “real” porn, the soft-core just wasn’t enough for me anymore!

5.    Seriously considering videotaping and watching myself fuck simultaneously on my tv. HOT.  Who needs porn when you can watch yourself live on your tv? WOWOWOW.

6.    Ordered $240 worth of sex toys ranging from videos, probes, vibrating beads, lube, clit stimulators and a dual vibe.  What has gotten into me?!  And I fully intend on actually using these with someone, not just myself! Double crazy that I am even feeling comfortable enough to do that now! Serious wow.

7.    Feel soo much more sexually confident because I can actually feel pleasure now. 

8.    I will never go back on birth control again.  Trojan’s stock just went up.

 

Those are just a few examples of how my sex drive has changed.  There are so many more, small things that have a big impact!  So ladies, if you’re on birth control and your sex drive is in the dumper and your man is starting to notice, try going off it for a while (but still be safe!).  It will do wonders for your sex life, your relationship, and your self-confidence, I would bet on it!

 

It’s been nice to have Hung around to experience all of these new pleasures with, but I know that’s gonna have to end soon before someone gets hurt.  But at least I have all my new toys to keep me satisfied until someone new comes around that can keep up with MY sex drive.  I’ll keep you posted…J